Sometimes it feels like the world is just so absurd as it really is. Today I’ve been hunting down that picture that I really want to have. I think it might work well with a story we’re working on. So I traveled for an hour to get there. This includes the maze that is Tokyu station, even managed a pit stop at the restrooms there. Yes, most metro stations in Tokyo seem to have a restroom or two. Maybe necessary since your trips tend to be quite long. I digress. I traveled, as I said, for an hour to arrive at the location to find a nice guard saying “Sorry, close at four, close at four.”
I got a wee bit annoyed with myself.
Why did I go first to Tokyo Hands, then to Loft and then to…. instead of doing my job? Don’t really know but, well, I’m glad I did. Now I’m also glad I did arrive to late. I got to do something I haven’t done in a while. I went looking for something else and found it, I think. Anyway, it was fun to yet again take photos of things that I just wanted to photograph. That I felt was esthetically pleasing. They probably wont fit into any story, but why care about such trivial things?
Anyway, to return to the absurdity of the world. It’s not! Most things are not absurd. They are just what would’ve happened if it could’ve happened. Murphy’s law comes to mind. An article I read recently in the exiledonline.com written by the one and only war nerd, said something similar but in the most un-pc way possible if I remember correctly. Maybe I don’t but then the war nerd seem to always aim for the un-pc so who cares?
Ok, I seem to wander off on paths that wont take me to the place I’m heading. Hmphf, that did just open up quite a lot of questions for me. Did that sentence make sense? Then, does this? ” A man leaving on a business trip wouldn’t be missed if he never arrived.” Heard David Bowie say that once on a show on the telly. I’ve never quite figured out what he meant. Is it a question or a statement to start with?
A week and a day ago I was far from the megalopolis that is Tokyo. I was having 57% booze in the mountains of Sichuan. The local party representative spoke about life. He said it wasn’t his destiny to travel. He probably will never see another country but his own. And further it was in my destiny to travel. Thus I was there. Therefore it was our destiny to meet. Which we did. Now I’m here. Closer to the people from this little village than I was before back home in Sweden but still many dimensions removed.
I feel lost at times. Especially when it comes to my photography. The urge I feel to photograph some things and sometimes the revulsion towards snapping away at others. Today I felt at peace when I lost my way and never arrived. I wasn’t missed but then on the other hand the photo is still there to be taken. I’m returning for it.

"Somehow I find this display highly erotic"